Dear mama,
I miss you, I miss your snuggling and warmth you used to give to my siblings and I. I hope that everything with you is okay because I have been worried ever since I thought you were taken away. What a difference my life is without you, challenges arise and I just don't know who to look to. In the last little while which I have been apart from you and the rest of our family I have learnt many things. Something which is most prominent and I have even noticed about myself is I have finally found myself an identity. When you really know yourself things seem to just click in to place like everything is worth living for. Ever since I have been brought to Pinyudu, I have learnt so many life lessons that are going to help me out in the near future. One lesson that I have learnt which seems crazy is "Love, friendship, pity.... all weaken you in war." (pg. 88) After this was acknowledged to me I have decided that chief is right and in order to be successful in war, friendship can no longer last. Mama it has been so long and I can't believe I can't see your face anymore. You would be so proud of what I have accomplished since I agreed to become a child soldier. I have worked through so much, "I was beaten almost every day." (pg. 79) I also worked through tough challenges and more. All to fight for my country and get revenge on what was done to us. I was small but I achieved the best test score. I worked harder than I would have ever imagined that I ever would. "I had the highest rank among the small boys like me and I felt proud." (pg. 91) Ever since I have come here to become a child soldier I was so excited to get my chance to fight. I finally did get my chance to fight but it really didn't feel right at some points to see what had happened to us happen to others. It wasn't right, and thats why I am going back to where I belong, I had to try and escape from war.
With all my regards,
your loving son
Jal